okay serious malamni rasa macam nak gelak.
nak gelak kuat kuat kuat.
so balis dendam kat sini.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH LOL DAH AH BALIS PUN SALAH EJA. HM HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
at last! i found my way to laugh. i know the cure. so whnever i feel sad, i will watch this stupid fucking damn idiot fool funny thing. its too stupid. hahahahahahaahahahahahaha i cant stop.

hmm tarik nafas okay stop
hahahaha okay dahhhhh! hmmm huh.

semoga kau jumpa jalan yang membawa kepada cahaya.
cahaya kebenaran yang hakiki
bukan kebodohan kau yang abadi.

wake up lah weiii, please lewls.

and god, thanks for showing me this. before im started to fall for him. yayers :D

geli wei tengok kau.

eee yek yek :P

dah moga bahagia. thats ur life aite. i just can watch it from afar. i cant give any of my words to you.

and you are back to be my stranger.

nvm. life is to short to be sad of. lets dancing in the rain.

dancing in the rain? will write about this post later. thannkyou chicken soup.

goin to sleep. hahaha lol you are just too innocent to be laugh of. hmm dah lah syah tak baik toi aku ni,

so im going to back off. and this is my forever goodbye to you. thanks for this short friendship. i should know from the first that we are not suit together.
tapi serious ke? is that ur cup of tea? em em. entahlah. hard to say, hard to believe. hard to jump into conclusions.

at first, memang rasa macam nak crying a river T.T but after that, i was laughing like crazy. watching your stupidness. your blindness. your ness ness ahh.

nyesal pun ada gak rasa. hahahaha sokay lerhhh. enjoy ur life then c:

so, lets laugh together. because laughter is the best medicine ever XD

tapi jangan gelak banyak2, nanti hati mati taw.

too lazy to be a heartbroken person. thankyou for this laughter. hahaha

Bye weh. forever goodbye from me. sayonara. egh dah ah.

okay tak payah faham dengan post ni.

mornight malaysia. send my love to korea :*

tapi aku still sedih........................ :'(

i found you. the right person. but i found you at the wrong time. oh sokay. i can move on xx

cause you are just like my breeze. like the breeze that brush off my face.

the breeze that calms me on, makes me forget about the world. but just for a second. and leave me forever.

thanks for being that breeze. you are the lightest stain that i can easily remove in my mind.

bye wak. </3





Assalamualaikum and hye people :)
right now, i am at nysa's house. ya for the second time. okay we had so much fun here and we did a lot of things together too. actually, kitorang play truant. balik rumah hari khamis. jumaat tak datang pun sekolah. sebabnya, school's program sangat sangat sangat boooooosaaaannn nak mati xx
hari hari adalah ceramah mah mah. rasa macam ughhhh yek please im not the type of person who can sit all the time and give my attention for a person. i really not that time of person. and i am the one yang cepat sangat rasa boring. ugh cmon lah. haha.
okay, actually update blog ni sebab nysa yang suruh. eee nysa ni. haha :3
hm, best sangat duduk dengan nysa. even dia selalu marah n bebel macam cik bedah. -.- tapi sabar jelahh. dah biasa dah pun. tapi, dalam garang dia, actually she is really a nice girl!! ya you know, she treats me more than a guest. yet, she treats me as her sister. sangat sangat selesa n okay duduk dengan dia (Y)
she takes care all of my necessities nicely. and haritu kami pergi swimming bersama. yahh seronok :)
mandi mandi mandi, tangkap gambar. pastu mandi balik. pastu tangkap gambar balik. pastu hujaaann. haha :)
seronok lah seronok. nysa dengan hobby baru dia ; selfcam, memang tak dapat dipisahkan. we planned a lot of things tapi tak tahu lah mampu ke tidak nak laksanakan plan kami dengan jayanya. thanks ya nysa for your good attention and care towards me. i really realy really appreciate it with wholeheartedly. okay heres some pictures from us.







and today's activity : spet our time in aeon seremban! yaahh its quite cool for me as this is the first time eh first time ke ek? haha papajelah. ya, my father always be the strict one whenever it comes to this matter. he hardly to let his kids out with their friends. i really hate this. doesnt he know what is the feeling of me as a teenager feels like? to stay in the house 24/7 everyday like a dumb person. and even, he easily let my brothers out without any doubt. oh my please show me the justice okay... ayah akan cakap, saya kecil lagi tak boleh keluar nanti terpedaya dengan orang jahat kene culik jual siam oh cmon dad i am FIFTEEN I AM FIFTEEN and i read the papers. i do know how to differentiate the bad or the good ones. tolong saya dah matured okay. huh. and others fathers like, okay you nak keluar dengan kawan? okay ayah boleh hantarkan. tapi my father? dia akn tunjuk surat khabar and suruh baca pasal cerita budak hilang bagai. and and, ayah sangat suka ceramah pasal facebook. pasal orang orang yang lari ikut kenalan facebook. oh daddy -.- tolonglaaaaaaaaahhh. tolonglah percaya dengan your daughter yang baik hati dan tak de kawan dengan mat wempitz ni. huh. dah lah. dah kahwin gaknya baru boleh lepak lepak ni semua.
okay ni pun dapat sebab duduk rumah nysa uwaaa :(
nysa, saya sangat tak suka bila awak cakap kemungkinan yang akan berlaku bila salah seorang dari kita semua takada. saya tak suka. mana mana pun kita, kita akan kawan sampai bila2 :)

tutup cerita

okay. ramai gilaaaa yang joined harini. dari bahau turun dari rompin turun dari rembau turun dari nilai turun. woahh macam rombongan dah ha. haha lawak gila. malu je rasa nak jalan ramai2. haha -.-
yang hadir adalah : WARDAH APUD NAD NYSA NANA AIN NEE INTAN TECHA NADTAJ OTTY WAWA haa ramai tak? :D
okay kitorang tengok movie highland tower. huh one word: BOSAN -.-
Okay i do admit myself that i really hate malay movies. TYPICAL MALAY MOVIES!! the romance, horror, action, commedy. and all the genres, they are all TYPICAL and CLICHE. sorry i just hate it.
and cerita hantu dia pun... macam biasalah kain putih rambut panjang kene rasuk menjerit and terkejut kejut. thats all. buat lah yang kene bunuh bunuh ke, please lah advance sikit malay movie producer! after tu, kitorang pergi makan lah kan. haha lawak gilaa. time tu nmpak jeng jeng jeng, okay adalah :) after tu pergi karaoke. uish gilaaa aku cakap. haha. aku ni ne leh pegang mike memang aku syok sendiri lee. hihi. dah lah panas sempit berhimpit lapan orang satu booth. lepasu ada satu incident ni, malu nya rasa. salah aku jugak kot sebab cari pasal dengan manusia tu. tak masal je kene gertak ngan dia :3 hmm and we took our pictures dekat picture box. ah biasalah. that is the must-do-activity untuk semua orang bila lepak aeon. mesti akan tangkap gambar kat situ -.- apedaa. haha kesian apud. dia dah lah penat karaoke haritu, dengan suara ala ala ramli sarip lagi. tetibe je dia tak muat nak masuk booth tu. sian gilaaa woi. duduk kat corner meratapi nasib. pastu kerek nak ada gambar sorang ha sekali ambil kau gambar mulut ternganga hahahaha pud lawak lah kau :D

okay, here is the piccaaa




















Pehal muka aku cam paling banyak je?
okay dah ngantuk baaii genite malaysia

Shit. damn.
I keep saying those words whenever i were in trouble.
how fool I am. i forget of Allah. I forget to seek for Allah assistance. instead, i keep blaming people, i keep questioning and maybe I ever blame the fate that Allah has destined for me. Astaghfirullah.

there were a lot of bad things happen to me in the past week. and I do hate with this suck things.
I lost my money.
I were being a subject for a boy to defend his mistakes.
I got B in English.
I got tired. i got hurt. i got temper. i got hatred.

Yes. 200 Ringgit Malaysia of mine were lost. i were crying like crazy on that night. this is my mistake. my. if i give that money earlier, this wouldn't happen. If i put the money in proper place, i wouldn't crying on that night. I'm sorry ibu, ayah. i were too careless. ashh. i never thought a person could steal in this ramadhan. how pathetic he/she is. i wish he/she will get the hidayah and return my money soon. for this moment, let this problem be our secret. shh! dont ever let my parents aware of this. i don't want to let them know about this let me bear this. i can use my own money and paid for that 200. i will collect it and use my savings. hmm.
Sorry again ibu, ayah :'(

That boy.
How i hate this matter.
do you think you are perfect enough to judge me?
yeah i do admit my mistake. but who are you to say such that silly words? and why me? there are other girls who wear that kind of attire. why are you keep questioning me? you are not my father either my brother. how idiot. i can't accept it. huh.

bagus sangat lah tu. balik dari mc 2 hari, macam macam cerita dengar yang tak bagus. sakit hati ni. nak tegur pun, tegur cara yang baik. macam aku sorang je umat yang buat kesalahan tu. mirror yourself first.
Then, sibuk sibuk nak mintak maaf. hell yeah. kau dah malukan aku depan semua orang, kau dah cakap benda tak baik, lepastu kau nak mintak maaf dari aku?
Eh, kau mana boleh mintak maaf dari aku. bukan aku ke yang salah? bukan kau ke yang bagus sangat? kenapa kena mintak maaf?
Typical form 3 smka pedas boys. sorry to say -.-

Tutup cerita walaupun hati masih tak puas.

yes. english.
77% B
have you ever thinking of giving the best of you? but the result was bad. its not like what you imagine.
i do give my best on my english paper. maybe it was too over?
i was lack of time to correct my error and mistakes.
who should i point my fingers to? the hand clock or the clumsy me?
i'm sorry teacher. i didn't came out as you expected.

and today. jatuh dari tangga.
sakit perut. sakit rusuk. sakit kaki. sakit hati.
the story began like this.
i saw my petite sister were standing beside a stair.
alah tangga yang orang construction panjat panjat tu. nak betulkan atap ke, nak betulkan lampu ke. bukan tangga rumah.
okay. pastu nampaklah muka dia macam eh nak naik ke tak naik ke tak ni eh?
masa tu, tengah tolong ibu pasang langsir dekat ruang tamu.
i as the most responsible and caring sister trying to give out my help.

Me: akak, kenapa tu? muka macam clueless je. tangga tu kenapa? takut nak panjat?
akak: echa. akak nak pasang langsir ni tapi takutlah nak panjat.
me: akak ni pondan betul lah *dalam hati* Okay meh lah sini orang tolong.

si adik yang penuh berkeyakinan mengatur langkah ke tangga putih yang kelihatan 'uzur'.
First try, berjaya. dapat pun pasang langsir kat tingkap tu. kerja senang pun akak tak boleh buat.
abang dan adik si adik yang berjantina lelaki hanya memandang dari televisyen dan mampu memberikan tepukan yang tidak terlalu gemuruh kerana si adik perempuan berjaya memanjat tangga untuk pasang langsir.
Langsuir punya abang. kerja lelaki, aku pulak kena buat.

climax.
sliding door.
okay si adik yang sudah mula over confident pun panjat lah tangga tu sorang sorang.
si kakak leka melipat langsir untuk dihantar ke dobi.

and serves of me. tangga tu tetiba goyy or goyang dan eh eh eh eh eh eh eh
JATUH!
aku yang kat atas tu macam mimpi je eh apa kena ni.
sekejap. ini bukan faktor gemuk. ini faktor tangga punya besi dekat tepi tu dah tercabut.
hampas punya akak tak tolong pegang tangga.

alhamdulillah. nasib tak jatuh kat sliding door tu. kalau ye lah kan, rasa dah kat hospital dah ni. kepala mesti dah termasuk kaca. wuishhh. nasib jatuh atas sofa.
Yang paling tak puas hatinya, akak and abang adik boleh gelak mcam nak pecah perut. jahat betul. aku yang sakit ni control muka je lah konon tak sakit konon tough je kan.
Akak paling over. pendek ni. dah lah kita nak tolong dia. bukan bersimpati. tapi bikin dia geli hati.
padan muka semua kena marah dengan ayah sebab tak tolong. HAHAHAHA.

And ainee, baru aku rasa perasaan kau haritu bila kita jatuh and everyone gelakkan kita. rasa dia macam.... makan petola mungkin? ergh.

Ramadan almost to the end. ashh. i didn't manage my time well in this holy month. busy with the trial. busy with the social network. busy with the unnecessary things. Astaghfirullah.
pertemukan aku dengan ramadan yang seterusnya ya allah. amin :')

eid-ul-fitr? Boria tahun ni seperti tahun sebelum. lebih kepada warna basic. brown for sure.
arahan komander pn noriza tiada siapa dapat membantah.
btw, it was worrying to see how my parents spent for this festival.

Takapalah. duit mereka.

Baik tidur sekarang. liat untuk sahur aku, habis kena jerit dengan akak pendek.

good mornight to myself.



its pathetic.
lament.
gloomy.
sad.
and i really dont know whats the hell was goin' on with myself tonight. like something was not there. was not complete. like missing someone maybe? uh :/
And again, I feel alone tonight :/ No one comes to me and i think that am i invisible or what?! its all began with you. When i think too much about you, i felt down. my mood is gone. you are the reason of my sadness. and i hate you :(
i just hate you when you are not around. dont you realize that?

and the next you.
you mess my night. i just feel relieve when i didnt put much hope on you. yes. we are just friends. but why that such things getting on my nerve. should I be envy with you and her? I dont get it. i just feel like an idiot watching you and her. nvm, just go with her. gaahh.

Stop all this Aisyah.
i can move on and i pretty sure with this :)

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Lets talk about ramadan :)
the most holy month in a year. subhanAllah :')
i just cant wait for the presence of ramadhan.
the month full of barakah. the only month that allah provides a lot of rewards and pahala of our ibadah towards HIM :)
the gates of the heaven will be open meanwhile the gates of the hell will be close. satan will be chain.
and I hope, this is the last ramadhan for me in my school. i just rlly wanna get out from there. haha.
okay. lets do a lot of ibadah for this ramadhan. :) may Allah accept all my good deeds and fasting during this ramadan. insyaAllah. :)
Happy ramadan to all muslim c:







Assalamualaikum and hye c:
its been a month since we were asked by the teachers to stay at the hostel. i miss my house badly! and maybe after this, boleh balik sekali je atau dua je time ramadan. Hashh! KEJAYAAN TIDAK AKAN MANIS TANPA PENGORBANAN. ingat tu aisyah. hm so last June ada banyak lah activities. bolehlah banyak dia. first and the foremost, asrama terbuka n hari kooperasi. i was too exhausted y'know. dah lah malam before tu tidur lambat semata mata nak siapkan dorm. haha ingat lagi malam tu. i was too stressed. habis semua orang kene marah dengan org. padan muka. hihi. yes, i admit that i cant control my anger towards ppl. memanglah aku ni susah nak marah, tapi once bila marah tu, habis semua orang aku marah sekali. habis semua orang kene hadap muka ketat aku. pity of them :l Okay. dorm aspura kan kan kan, hmm biasa biasa je. haha. conclusionnya, dorm kami tak menang. rasa macam worthless je tidur lambat sepanjang minggu tu, spent a lot of money and blablabla. sokay lah. haha. then, hari kooperasi tu pulak, hm quite okay lah. time tu banyak makan je. my class ada lah jugak bukak gerai ni, tapi im not involved at selling the food. tapi, org tolong masak2 semua. hee best lah best dengan ada cikgu roshadah sekali. okay the next day ada hari sukan. haha waaa this was fun to the max. sebab i won a 400m dash competition. 4x100 dapat gangsa je. haha takpe syukur jelah :D lepastu ada lah khemah hias hias. hm okay rumah hijau punya comel lah ada mr.Plankton. unfortunately, we didnt won that part. tapi kan, untuk kesuluruhannya, GREEN TEAM was the winner of the Sports day. hee. tu yang bestnya. eh btw, mana apud letak medal aku eh? hm nvm. okay nah gambar. 



okay another post for this day. actually, tengah sangat2 bosan sebab alone kat rumah ibu ayah adik beradik semua keluar. guys. malaysia is getting hotter day by day kan? just imagine, what will be happen when we 're getting older? what's going to be with the earth? haihh and sometimes, its really upset for me of thinking what we had done to this earth. pollution. macamana lah anak cucu nanti time diorang dah besar? hmm :/
okay im going to far. tadi call nysa, then dia bagitahu 10 july dah puasa. yes sangat laju masa berjalan. hushh. okay lah tu puasa. lepas puasa raya. lepas raya pmr. lepas pmr dapat result. lepas dapat result boleh pindah. yeayyy! harap dapat straight A's sebab nak sangat get out from pedas. hm tapi kan tapi.  this mid year exam result was toooooooooooo baaaaaaaaaaddddddddddddddd/ okay ni menyedihkan. everyone is busy talking about the saps and me just reading their tweets and dont have the guts to check my result. see. i am chicken. coward. entah lah. sedih lah. rasa diri ni bila makin besar makin bengong pulak. kenapa eh? banyak makan semut ke? ke sebab makin pemalas ni? Dah lah ada tiga penjuru. oh cmon. how should i tell my parents about this. takpalah. kita ghedo jelah. tawakkal. try harder and better next time. i know i can do it better! hmm :)

anyways, teenagers nowadays memang dah ramai sangat kan yang hanyut? sedih tengok golongon sekaum seagama sebangsa. ya allah. jauh kan lah aku dari semua tu. takut tengok diorang. cepat cepat lah insaf. and i mostly worried of my own bro's shukri..
dia ni wempitzzzz punya olang. tak suka tengok dia bawak motor. macam nak tertinggal tayar tu. ashhh cepat lah berubah demi keamanan keluarga encik jalani ni. ingat lagi dulu dia pernah excidents. hmm, awal tahun ke tahun lepas ea? tak ingat. malam before that accident, ade lah kat my school musolla buat zikir zikir semua tu. on that time, i were sitting alone and kept thinking of my brother. tak tahu kenapa malam tu rasa sangat tak sedap hati and tetiba je nangis. okay after that dah niat dah dalam hati nak call ibu nak tanya pasal semua orang sihat ke tidak. tetiba malam tu takda chance nak call as public tu full dengan form one yang muka homesick nak lepaskan rindu. k fine. then i decided naik dorm je and terus tido. and the next night, i called my mom and there was a bad news. okay syukri accident time tu. srsly rasa macam ibu ambil orang kat sini orang nak balik T.T then fortunately, my mom cakap its okay just external injuries tahan wad 2 hari. everything was okay alright and bla bla bla. okay see. strong kan family bonds kami c: sampai dapat predict something wrong will gonna be happen. and ingat after accident tu si syukri ni will be better person, insaf ke apa. hmm hopeless je. hampeh. perangai taknak bewubah. frust tengok dia T.T. haritu aku rasa macam orang besar bila bagi tazkirah depan dia. and guess what, dia buat muka toya troll je. eee geram! hushh okay next topic.




So this is the most saddest part ever! my ijjue icelam dah kawin luls aaaa sangat rasa macam apahal kau kawin weh kau muda lagi go on with your carreer lah aku tak suka tengok kau kahwin! haihh. apakan daya. i really adores him. to the max okay. siap buat header dekat twitter. tapi maybe jodoh dia kan. tapi still tak boleh terima jugak! hmm alahh. ish yai. eee. okay stop. :( Dia handsome. and i really respects him. you know, wife dia okay lah not-so-bad and rasa sangat yang izzue ni tak pilih rupa paras. takpelahh. me as your die hard fan wishing you all the best. heartbroken weh T.T
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