Shit. damn.
I keep saying those words whenever i were in trouble.
how fool I am. i forget of Allah. I forget to seek for Allah assistance. instead, i keep blaming people, i keep questioning and maybe I ever blame the fate that Allah has destined for me. Astaghfirullah.

there were a lot of bad things happen to me in the past week. and I do hate with this suck things.
I lost my money.
I were being a subject for a boy to defend his mistakes.
I got B in English.
I got tired. i got hurt. i got temper. i got hatred.

Yes. 200 Ringgit Malaysia of mine were lost. i were crying like crazy on that night. this is my mistake. my. if i give that money earlier, this wouldn't happen. If i put the money in proper place, i wouldn't crying on that night. I'm sorry ibu, ayah. i were too careless. ashh. i never thought a person could steal in this ramadhan. how pathetic he/she is. i wish he/she will get the hidayah and return my money soon. for this moment, let this problem be our secret. shh! dont ever let my parents aware of this. i don't want to let them know about this let me bear this. i can use my own money and paid for that 200. i will collect it and use my savings. hmm.
Sorry again ibu, ayah :'(

That boy.
How i hate this matter.
do you think you are perfect enough to judge me?
yeah i do admit my mistake. but who are you to say such that silly words? and why me? there are other girls who wear that kind of attire. why are you keep questioning me? you are not my father either my brother. how idiot. i can't accept it. huh.

bagus sangat lah tu. balik dari mc 2 hari, macam macam cerita dengar yang tak bagus. sakit hati ni. nak tegur pun, tegur cara yang baik. macam aku sorang je umat yang buat kesalahan tu. mirror yourself first.
Then, sibuk sibuk nak mintak maaf. hell yeah. kau dah malukan aku depan semua orang, kau dah cakap benda tak baik, lepastu kau nak mintak maaf dari aku?
Eh, kau mana boleh mintak maaf dari aku. bukan aku ke yang salah? bukan kau ke yang bagus sangat? kenapa kena mintak maaf?
Typical form 3 smka pedas boys. sorry to say -.-

Tutup cerita walaupun hati masih tak puas.

yes. english.
77% B
have you ever thinking of giving the best of you? but the result was bad. its not like what you imagine.
i do give my best on my english paper. maybe it was too over?
i was lack of time to correct my error and mistakes.
who should i point my fingers to? the hand clock or the clumsy me?
i'm sorry teacher. i didn't came out as you expected.

and today. jatuh dari tangga.
sakit perut. sakit rusuk. sakit kaki. sakit hati.
the story began like this.
i saw my petite sister were standing beside a stair.
alah tangga yang orang construction panjat panjat tu. nak betulkan atap ke, nak betulkan lampu ke. bukan tangga rumah.
okay. pastu nampaklah muka dia macam eh nak naik ke tak naik ke tak ni eh?
masa tu, tengah tolong ibu pasang langsir dekat ruang tamu.
i as the most responsible and caring sister trying to give out my help.

Me: akak, kenapa tu? muka macam clueless je. tangga tu kenapa? takut nak panjat?
akak: echa. akak nak pasang langsir ni tapi takutlah nak panjat.
me: akak ni pondan betul lah *dalam hati* Okay meh lah sini orang tolong.

si adik yang penuh berkeyakinan mengatur langkah ke tangga putih yang kelihatan 'uzur'.
First try, berjaya. dapat pun pasang langsir kat tingkap tu. kerja senang pun akak tak boleh buat.
abang dan adik si adik yang berjantina lelaki hanya memandang dari televisyen dan mampu memberikan tepukan yang tidak terlalu gemuruh kerana si adik perempuan berjaya memanjat tangga untuk pasang langsir.
Langsuir punya abang. kerja lelaki, aku pulak kena buat.

climax.
sliding door.
okay si adik yang sudah mula over confident pun panjat lah tangga tu sorang sorang.
si kakak leka melipat langsir untuk dihantar ke dobi.

and serves of me. tangga tu tetiba goyy or goyang dan eh eh eh eh eh eh eh
JATUH!
aku yang kat atas tu macam mimpi je eh apa kena ni.
sekejap. ini bukan faktor gemuk. ini faktor tangga punya besi dekat tepi tu dah tercabut.
hampas punya akak tak tolong pegang tangga.

alhamdulillah. nasib tak jatuh kat sliding door tu. kalau ye lah kan, rasa dah kat hospital dah ni. kepala mesti dah termasuk kaca. wuishhh. nasib jatuh atas sofa.
Yang paling tak puas hatinya, akak and abang adik boleh gelak mcam nak pecah perut. jahat betul. aku yang sakit ni control muka je lah konon tak sakit konon tough je kan.
Akak paling over. pendek ni. dah lah kita nak tolong dia. bukan bersimpati. tapi bikin dia geli hati.
padan muka semua kena marah dengan ayah sebab tak tolong. HAHAHAHA.

And ainee, baru aku rasa perasaan kau haritu bila kita jatuh and everyone gelakkan kita. rasa dia macam.... makan petola mungkin? ergh.

Ramadan almost to the end. ashh. i didn't manage my time well in this holy month. busy with the trial. busy with the social network. busy with the unnecessary things. Astaghfirullah.
pertemukan aku dengan ramadan yang seterusnya ya allah. amin :')

eid-ul-fitr? Boria tahun ni seperti tahun sebelum. lebih kepada warna basic. brown for sure.
arahan komander pn noriza tiada siapa dapat membantah.
btw, it was worrying to see how my parents spent for this festival.

Takapalah. duit mereka.

Baik tidur sekarang. liat untuk sahur aku, habis kena jerit dengan akak pendek.

good mornight to myself.